Anxious

I'm sitting here in the kitchen listening to the sweet sounds coming from the living room. In there is my family, all 5 of them. I hear the baby's swing swaying back and forth as she sleeps. And I hear the precious sounds of my three "big babies" as they watch their Praise Baby DVD and drink their milk cups with daddy. They love to name everything that they see come on the screen. I love these sounds, I hear their precious voices in my sleep. I had to step away from them because it is in these times that fear grips my heart. I guess that fear led me to write and ask you all to keep praying. Since this stomach illness began, I've been praying for everyone to have relief from it and for Brady to feel as strong as possible. For the next few days I'm going to focus on praying that this chemo is destroying this terrible tumor. I'm praying that God's mighty hand will cause this tumor to shrink beyond all expectation.

It must be clear to all of you by know the awful way that having a child with cancer changes your emotional state from day to day, even minute by minute. One day I'm talking about how great it will be when we all go to Disney someday, the next day I'm silently fearing that I'll never see Brady get on the school bus. Cancer is such an evil disease that every day tries to pull me down. It's times like these when I'm so glad I can turn to God's word for comfort and peace. That is for sure what I'll be doing tonight since I seem to be stuck on the doom and gloom:( One amazing book I just finished reading is When God and Cancer Meet. It was sent to me by Cozy Quilt Ministry from Farmersville NY. If you know someone battling cancer, it is a must read!

That's all for now, please keep praying! By the way, those sweet sounds from the living room? They just turned into "Guys, knock it off, stop throwing your cups! That's it, time for night-night!" Ha!