We had a memorial service for my Grandma today. My heart was certainly somewhere else, but as much as possible I tried to let my mind be present as I listened to Pastor speak about God's grace. It is IMPOSSIBLE to look back on the events of the last month and not see God's grace sprinkled throughout this journey. With each day's events, I can't help but find incredible encouragement in the assuredness of God's grace from scripture, but how amazing to see it working in our lives. We are desperately trying to cling to this as we continually deal with feelings of sadness, anger, fear, and doubt. I wanted to share with all of you some of these miracles as a witness to God and His grace:
1. After our Dec23rd appt with the developmental specialist, Brady was given a diagnosis of cerebral palsy. The doctor set us up with an appointment for an MRI of JUST Brady's head for Jan21st. As the weeks went on and Matt and I studied more about CP, it just didn't seem like Brady. We both had an instinct that this was not what was wrong with Brady. I felt compelled to call the doctor and ask that they also do an MRI of the spine. The secretary was VERY reluctant to even ask the doctor, she told me several times it was not going to show anything for a kid with CP. I persisted. I called back two times and finally she agreed to run it by the doctor. They finally said they would do it if the insurance would okay it.
2.Up until Jan1st, we had Univera insurance. The first time the doctor submitted just the brain MRI to the insurance, they denied it. After Jan1st, we had to switch to Preferred Care. At this point, they submitted the request for both the brain and spine. We were okayed without any problem for both tests.
3. It is unimaginably horrifying to think of what would have happened if #1 and #2 above hadn't happened. We have been told that the tumor on Brady's spine could have caused paralysis at anytime. Had we not insisted that the spine be captured by an MRI, we would have never known about the cancer. Brady would most like have become paralyzed and more than likely the cancer would have spread making successul treatment highly unlikely. If we hadn't switched insurances, we would not have been able to get the spine MRI done, at least not for quite sometime.
It is impossible for us not to see our God at work in Brady's life. It is easy for us to be mad, we are mad. It is easy for us to be scared out of our minds, at times we are paralyzed by fear. But, we are committed to seeing God's grace in Brady's life and to share that with others. May he be a living testimony of God's goodness that is available for all who believe.