Saturday, February 14, 2009

Anxious

I'm sitting here in the kitchen listening to the sweet sounds coming from the living room. In there is my family, all 5 of them. I hear the baby's swing swaying back and forth as she sleeps. And I hear the precious sounds of my three "big babies" as they watch their Praise Baby DVD and drink their milk cups with daddy. They love to name everything that they see come on the screen. I love these sounds, I hear their precious voices in my sleep. I had to step away from them because it is in these times that fear grips my heart. I guess that fear led me to write and ask you all to keep praying. Since this stomach illness began, I've been praying for everyone to have relief from it and for Brady to feel as strong as possible. For the next few days I'm going to focus on praying that this chemo is destroying this terrible tumor. I'm praying that God's mighty hand will cause this tumor to shrink beyond all expectation.

It must be clear to all of you by know the awful way that having a child with cancer changes your emotional state from day to day, even minute by minute. One day I'm talking about how great it will be when we all go to Disney someday, the next day I'm silently fearing that I'll never see Brady get on the school bus. Cancer is such an evil disease that every day tries to pull me down. It's times like these when I'm so glad I can turn to God's word for comfort and peace. That is for sure what I'll be doing tonight since I seem to be stuck on the doom and gloom:( One amazing book I just finished reading is When God and Cancer Meet. It was sent to me by Cozy Quilt Ministry from Farmersville NY. If you know someone battling cancer, it is a must read!

That's all for now, please keep praying! By the way, those sweet sounds from the living room? They just turned into "Guys, knock it off, stop throwing your cups! That's it, time for night-night!" Ha!

9 comments:

  1. Sounds like you had a beautiful Valentine's Day moment.
    My prayers continue morning, noon and night. Sunrise on the beach is a wonderous time, every morning is different but glorious and I pray for Brady. Around noon when I watch the dolphins swim up the inlet I think of Brady's smile and I pray for him. And at night the sunsets here are second only to the sunrises and I pray for you all. Wes and I think of you all often and hope every day brings strength and healing.
    Love, Lynn

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  2. Sending a Valentine's prayer for all of you!

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  3. Hey Meg,

    I'm sure it's easy to say and hard to do, but try not to let the anxiety and fear over take you. One week after his first round of chemo, Brady has battled a stomach bug--despite a signficant blood count drop--and come out on top. He's happy and can play and fight and throw milk cups with this siblings. This is great stuff! Try to stay focused on the positive things that are happening. This little guy so sweet and so strong. You and Matt are doing an awesome job of being there for him, each other, and the other kids. Prayers from all over the world are going up for your family daily. How exciting! I will keep praying for you. Happy Valentine's Day, Old Friend. "We'll be friends forever, just wait and see."

    -Rosalie

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  4. I can't imagine the range of emotions you go through everyday! When I get frustrated and my kids are driving me crazy, I sometimes do stop and think what if they weren't here anymore? I'd do anything to hear them crying or fighting with each other again. So I try to not take things so seriously and be thankful for what I do have. And that is healthy kids. That is something I do everytime I think of Brady. I imagine what you are going through, it's put everything in perspective for me. He is an amazing little boy and is touching lives he doesn't even know. Just shows you how big God is and what an amazing call Brady has on his life.

    Continuing to pray!
    Allison

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  5. Those are some sweet sounds for a sweet Valentines day. I continue to pray daily.

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  6. "I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. They looked to Him and were radiant, and their faces were not ashamed. This poor man cried out, and the Lord heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles . . ." Psalms 34 I pray for peace in your heart and mind. May the Lord overshadow your beautiful family with His love and Spirit. May the Lord encamp around your family and His Hand of healing touch Brady's little body. In the name of the Lord, Amen

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  7. Megan,
    Focus on today and the Brady's sweet spirit. God only knows what tomorrow will bring. I think of the families that lost their loved ones at the plane crash. We must live for today and have faith that God is in control.
    Everyday we are to cherish our times together with our families and friends and not worry about tomorrow.
    Peace of Christ,
    Love, Deb R.

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  8. You guys are always in our prayers! Every Sunday in church Connor reminds me to ask for prayers for Brady. If you need anything don't hesitate to call.

    -Susan Boyle

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